Out of sight. Out of mind..

I know, you aren’t that guy that I dreamed of. Not saying it in a bad way, but pretty much as straight forward as I can. I can say, you’ve given me more then I ever dreamed of . You might not be the guy who admits they are wrong. You’ll never ever chase after a girl, regardless of what you did. You’re never the first to say sorry, because you just feel like you did nothing wrong. You don’t have all the sweet words to sweep me off my feet. You will speak your mind. You will make me work for you, because you feel that you’re just in the same position as I am, we are no different and there are no expections. You ignore me, until I come running back to you. If I ever leave you, you have a way of showing you ” dont give a fuck ” . This probably, is no where close to what I wanted. Because, you’ve given me the complete opposite. Yes, it hurts that all of this happens , but you actually made me stronger. I’m looking at it through a different point of view, so I won’t get hurt as much. I look at is as if you’re teaching me how to deal and cope with hard times. You’ve toughen me up.. You might not notice how bad you affect me with the smallest things you do and say, but believe me I pay attention to every little thing you do. I learned that, even if someone loves you they will hurt you regardless. So if someone tells you ” if you love someone , you don’t hurt them ” thats complete bullshit. Because, love hurts… like a bitch. I guess, it’s really up to you to determine if they are worth the troubles or not.

A girl can only hold on for so long. She can only take so much, handle so much crap, and hold in so much bullshit until it’s finally too much and you’re left with not much.

“I miss the old you”. Bitch. Shuttup. I’m the same person I was and always have been.. even years ago. Still that same caring, big hearted, wild individual except with a lot more wisdom and a lot less ignorance because I’ve learned a lot along the way. I really dislike when people tell me that I’ve changed. I’m the same person you met, I just did a hell of a lot more growing up as the years pass. No one stays the same forever! And you’re still annoying!